I forgot to get glasses.
I kept thinking, “I’ll do it tomorrow,” and then we went out of town and I remembered 24 hours before the eclipse that it was happening and of course everyone who’d had glasses was out. And yes, I know I could have borrowed some. Our neighbors were out and one of them lent my girl a pair right around peak time so she could see the wonder as she was on her way out of the drive for work. I had glasses back in 2017, when the effect of a solar eclipse was similar here, and it was cool, to be sure, but yesterday, right around 1:30, I made a fresh latte, took a book and my phone to the backyard, and settled into my favorite chair to just…I don’t know, experience it?
I stayed in that chair, for the most part, until just after peak. Answered a few texts, looked at some amazing eclipse pictures some gifted friends had taken and were posting to their socials, drank my coffee slowly…it was the most still and the most quiet I had been in many days. And that meant I noticed some things.
I noticed the way birds sang their late afternoon and evening tunes, and though I am not a birdsong expert by any stretch of the imagination, I know that how they sound at dawn is different than how they sound at evening. They were loud yesterday afternoon, beautiful in their various tones, like they just wanted everyone to know something special was happening and we should all stop and pay attention.
I noticed that even though cloud cover started rolling in around 2:30, it was still obvious that the lighting, the feel of the air, even, was changing – everything got softer, somehow, like the edges of this often harsh world had pulled back long enough to serve reminder that everything is not always hard.
I noticed the new leaves of trees and shrubs floating up in a light breeze now and again, and I swear I could almost see that breeze, translucent and silvery all at once, sort of the way the air is often so clear and light just after a vicious storm has gone through.
I noticed my pup Dolly was not so sure what was happening, but decided the best way to get through whatever was happening was to curl up right next to my chair and sit as still and quiet as I was. Presence matters, y’all, and I am convinced dogs know this far better than humans.
I noticed the street lights popped on, just like they are supposed to when twilight settles in, and why this struck me so I don’t really know, but it made me smile.
I noticed the shadows playing against my yard and my driveway and the back wall of my house, the branches of trees etched against concrete and grass and siding with the same sort of barely-yet-completely-there imprint as Harry Potter’s Patronus.
I noticed that it all just felt enormous, beyond real understanding, ethereal, and thought that maybe we need such reminders that we are part of something so much bigger than ourselves on a regular basis. I get that there is real science in it all, and I also get that there is much of this earth we inhabit that will never be entirely understood, and that, for me, is where some of our greatest pain and some of our greatest hope continues to be known – “thin places,” Celtic spirituality would call it – the spaces where the veil between that which is earthly and that which is not lifts just enough to help us see that which is divine.
And I noticed that at peak, when here in Louisville the coverage was just two percentage points shy of totality, that there was, indeed, still light enough to see by. And this is what stuck with me all last evening, and into this morning – that even when darkness seems to be so close to blotting out light, it only takes a smidge, relatively speaking, of light to show the way. If you’ve ever lit a candle in a completely dark room, you know this is true. And, if you’ve ever known the strength of someone next to you when you aren’t sure how else you’ll make it through a particularly terrible day, you know this, too. Hope and light are, after all, pretty mighty things, even when packaged up so as to seem not so much.
I learned yesterday morning that the mother of a dear childhood friend was killed in a car wreck. And some of the texting I did yesterday afternoon was with a close circle of friends, all expressing our love and our sorrow and our concern for our dear one back home in Georgia.
And maybe it was the eclipse, the sense of something different in the air, but our conversation reminded me, too, of how much presence matters, of what a gift even the tiniest bit of light can be in a moment of darkness, of how there are ties binding us to one another and to this earth that we often take for granted. As the lyrics of a favorite Broadway tune go, “Ain’t no man Manhattan, an island of his own, nor Roosevelt or Staten, ain’t none of us alone….”
It is impossible for me to think about that 90 minutes in my yard yesterday without being sure as I am of anything that we are held in the grip of a creative Love that knows no bounds, and that keeps us through light and dark, both. It is impossible, too, for me to think about that 90 minutes and not remember that we were created for one another – to be with and for each other.
No matter, and perhaps even because of, what’s happening around us.
I think, maybe, I’m glad I forgot to get glasses.